Huda Beauty Desert Dusk review

Capturing the shimmering dunes and lights of a desert at dusk, Huda Beauty has released another majestic eye shadow palette to her line. The vibrant shades inspired by the mysterious desert landscape had me falling head over heels and utterly in love. As with any eye shadow palette I begin working out what the crease and transition colours are and imagining what looks to create, but I was just so  blown away by how vibrant the shades are. Very few palettes excite me but this sparked a creativity in me like never before and that’s when you know its pretty damn special. The palette was available on Cult Beauty for £56, ( exactly the same price as her previous palette). As usual i’ll be giving my honest opinion about whether its truly worth the hefty price tag as well as comparing it to her previous palette!

Packaging

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I love how Huda and her team took on board the complaints/suggestions her customers have said over her first palette, for example people wanted a mirror and I felt the same way too and the palette felt light and flimsy  so people felt like it wasn’t worth the £56 (which in my opinion is quite a lot for an eyeshadow palette). A lot of effort and consideration generally can be seen because the packaging is so beautiful. Waking up and seeing an intoxicating Arabian princess on your vanity staring right back at you on a gloomy day is just so different and genius. Also, when compared to the Rose Gold, the palette feels a lot more sturdy and heavy and she’s also included a mirror (thank the lord) so I’m glad she took on board what we wanted and it shows that she took our concerns seriously!

Swatches

For £56 you are getting:

– 8 Mattes

– 6 Pressed Pearls

– Three duo chrome toppers

– One pure glitter ( I’ll be sharing  a funny/heartbreaking story about this shade further on in the review!)

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Some of the mattes for example Saffron were a little patchy and difficult to swatch however I was perfectly pleased with the rest including all the pressed pearls and duo chrome toppers that im so excited to create looks with. However, the heartbreak with Cosmo was that I wasn’t entirely aware that its a complete loose glitter in the pan so as I turned the palette over to read some information on the back I heard something fell… And it was at that moment my heart dropped and saw the pan completely empty and a bunch of glitter on the floor. I was so annoyed. I did scrape it off the floor and pat it in but I think there should have been some sort of protective layer, the paper provided isn’t enough to hold the glitter in place because it moves around. I genuinely think for a high price there should have been something to stop the glitter from moving its just my opinion but if I hadn’t have saved cosmo I would’ve been one angry customer😩

The look I created and posted on my Instagram was a halo eye.

1) Eden was used for a transition shade along with Musk to deepen the crease.

2) I then used Oud in the inner corner and outer corner to create the halo shape. To soften the edges I mixed Desert Sand and the tiniest amount of Musk.

3) Saffron and Amber were used to deepen and define the halo in the same areas I used Oud. In the centre I first packed on Nefertiti and then applied glitter glue on top. I then applied Cosmo using a small synthetic packing brush.

4) On the lower lashline I used the same shades but using more Oud on the outer eye. Nefertiti was used as a inner corner highlight and using a angled liner I applied saffron in my inner waterline and I really liked how it looked

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The only issue I had was that some of the matte shades were a little patchy, when on the eye and swatches. For example when I layered similar colours such as Amber and Saffron to deepen and define I noticed skin still peeking through so I had to reapply and it was if the colour had disappeared or seperated. The problem with that is you end up adding more and more so it can turn into an unblended mess. Cosmo and Nefertiti applied nicely and there was a strong deposit of colour so I was happy with that. I will be creating more creative looks on my instagram so follow me if you don’t already so you don’t miss out!

One thing that really stood out and I admired was the campaign for this launch. If you haven’t watched the first look already on Huda’s Instagram i’ll link it here because it is jaw dropping. Im really loving the amount of effort digital influencers and bloggers with their own makeup lines are putting into their launches its incredible to see. Everything from the location, to the addictive music, the cinematography blew me away its one of my favourite launch videos to date. The genius idea of having a global snapchat filter to itensify the hype even further just made me admire Huda and her team even more. Their raw passion is so inspiring and uplifting and im excited to see what more Huda Beauty has to offer!

Final Verdict: Is it for me?

You ladies know that my reviews are a textbook long so to wrap this up I feel that if you want to push yourself experimenting with deep reds and purples, and playing with different textures and possibly scraping off glitter off the floor then this palette is for you. It gets my creative juices flowing and makes me want more to experiment with different coloured glitters, as opposed to my usual golds and silvers and get out of my comfort zone a little bit. It wont really be my everyday go to palette because I did try using Eden with Oud and I didn’t really like how it looked so i’ll be sticking with the Rose Gold. Its a palette to explore your creativity and have fun with but not really something i would be choosing to wear everyday.

I hope you found this review useful let me know if you have any questions. See you in my next post!

Love from Sahibah x

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Life with a single parent

Scratching the suface of an unfortunate journey, i wanted to share what life feels like growing up with a single parent. A reminder to those who are like me that we can get through it, we have and we will, and to shed some light to those who were fortunate having a normal childhood.

The only memory i have of my dad before he left when i was just a toddler, is us watching tv. Im not sure how i’ve clinged on to that to be honest, it might be a dream or a cluster of random memories sewn together, but i like to think of it as a memory. To summarise life after he left, it was as if my childhood was set on fire. It was a nightmare that im glad i was too young to fully understand, unlike my older siblings. I remember being put to bed and waking up in a random car. It was my dad trying to take me away with him after he left ( apparently he loved me the most). Waking up in random cars, being pulled between two parents every other night, the screaming, the fights, the chasing him around every weekend, knocking on door after door after door hoping he would come back. It stayed like that for years. Now as an adult i regret all the time we wasted chasing  a dead end when instead we should have let go and moved on.

I cant really blame my mom for chasing him. She was taught her duties as a wife and a mother and nothing else. She wasnt given a proper education and she depended entirely on her husband (as everyone else did at that time, it was the norm). So i cant imagine how devastated, lost and confused she must have felt waking up the morning after he left. Having to handle 3 kids and a house that came with a tonne of responsibilities and new things she had to learn. I cant imagine how scared she must have been. Thinking about it brings a tear to my eye. It was devastating.

So that was life for my mom. Learning how to be completely independent. Toughening herself up, thinking like a man to survive in a strange country with her 3 daughters she fought to protect every single day. Sometimes she tells me stories that are too painful to hear… She tells me how she used to move furniture against our bedroom door, she was paranoid thinking we would get robbed. She stayed awake the whole night, scared with one child in one arm and one in the other. Sleeping for just a couple of hours and waking up when it was time for school, and then a full day of chores and responsibilities ahead of her. Deemed unfit for work, she did her best to provide for us. Even if i didnt get that laptop i wanted for my birthday she always made sure i got something. The sacrifices shes made for us are countless, from carrying me on her shoulders in heavy rain to a doctor to waiting outside in the cold to collect me and my siblings from school and mosque every day. She had a choice that night when my dad left. She could have ditched us too and moved back to her country and lived her life. But she didnt. Such is the power of a mothers love. Through the cold and the wind and the snow she raised us and shes applauded for it.

“So what does it feel like?”. I used to get asked that quite a lot. Its living a life but with a deep emptiness.  Put simply its a hole in your heart that no one can fill, no hobby can distract you from it, no epic love of your life can take the place of. Its a scar that never fades. I actually do have a scar from a fight i was caught in between my parents. A splinter of glass hit my cheek and it formed a scar. A reminder of my hell. Its the little luxuries in life ive wanted but never had. Having two parents attend parents evening, a shopping trip with my dad, little family holidays, the comfort of knowing i have a protector. Those are the luxuries i would kill to have and luxuries no one should ever take granted. Phrases like “daddy’s little girl” were a mystery to me too. However, me and my sisters had to toughen up and fend for ourselves to survive.

I’ll never forget the sacrifices my mother has made. Even now when my dad has sort of come back and wants to be more involved, his efforts are nothing compared to what he put us through. At first when he made contact, i was furious, i didnt forgive him for years. How could anyone? Eventually i softened up (only because my mom told me to, otherwise im ruthless when it comes to forgiveness). I thought if my mom has the strength and courage to forgive him then i should too. However i dont think he’ll ever know the extent of the damage he caused. Psychological studies have proven children from broken familes, from single parents find it difficult to have healthy long lasting relationships. And its true. We’re paranoid in thinking we’ll get betrayed, having low levels of trust and just the eternal emptiness hovering around us.

Anyway thats enough dullness. We got through it and yes it was hell and i would kill in a heartbeat for the chance to have a normal childhood. But it was meant to be. I’ve seen things no child should see, pain no child should suffer through but as a result, its made us stronger, wiser, faster and appreciative of tiny blessings most people overlook. If one day i grow to be even half the woman my mom is, i would be pretty damn proud. Because even the brightest diamond could never repay and amount to the favours and sacrifices shes made. That any mother has made.

What we can do is be appreciative and let them know that. Let them know that we’re thankful, and we honour and love them before its too late. I hope i’ve shed some light on an unfortunate situation that some people have to face and accept as a part of life.

See you in my next post!

Love from Sahibah x

 

 

 

Smiling again

Hey my loves, today i want to talk about smiling and emotional numbness. Losing the ability to feel happy as far as im aware and from my experience can come from feeling numb/empty inside

Growing up, ive seen countless people including myself expressionless, as if they’re in a trance, daydreaming and staring at a wall. We’ve all experienced this emptiness somehow. As far as my knowledge goes,  numbness can be caused by depression or anxiety and even stress. Some antidepressents can cause you to feel emotionally numb as a side effect. Its a difficult emotion to explain, but its a terrible sinking feeling. Even if your in a room full of people, you feel empty and isolated from inside. You dont feel sad, irritated or angry it really is just emptiness. It really is inexplainable but its temporary, so if you relate to what i’ve said above, hang in there and handle it in a healthy way by reading these tips…

When i think of numbness, i think of depression, and when i think of depression, i think of talking to someone ASAP. The first step in treating this is to discover the underlying cause as to why you feel this way and then figure out a treatment. In my opinion, a therapist would be best. I can say, from my experience spending time with a  therapist, getting a new opinion/perspective has been SO refreshing, a one hour session made me feel unburdened and reassured that i will get better.

Now, in my culture visiting a therapist/psychiatrist is looked down upon and its “embarrasing”, if word gets out. People will gossip, and they’ll say so and so’s daughter/son is crazy, i wonder whats wrong, did he/she do something wrong blah blah blah… To that i say FUCK what anyone says ( i dont normally swear but i just had to!) I’m so against this mentality i wish i could somehow pull it out of their heads. Your mental health, your happiness and your well being comes before anyone and everyone. Going to a therapist is not embarrasing and its nothing to be ashamed of remember that. It was the best decision i ever made. The first session was a little awkward, you are talking to a stranger of course, and i remember sitting there thinking where do i even begin from, but it started to get easier when i got asked questions about my feelings and why do i think so negatively. We also took a trip to the past, talked about my childhood and my time growing up and how its influenced me. I gained a new perspective every session and became a bit more confident about expressing myself. Its not easy talking about your feelings, discovering your unconcious and the motivation behind what you say or do. Its a journey that takes time, patience and understanding but it is so worth it.

You dont need to spend thousands on a private therapist, you can appproach your doctor, explain your situation and he/she will refer you, or you can even talk to a member of staff at school, college, university or even work and there will 100% be a guidance counsellor or a therapist. If you need further support, you will be referred to a specialist, but dont let this get you down. It just means you can get better treatment that you deserve.

Exercise is also great for stress relief, something to take your mind off things, to flood your mind and body with “good” endorphines. Im not a great exerciser, i never work out but when i feel like i cant smile, or when i feel emotionless i tend to go for walks with my nephew, or sometimes i dance ( im actually forced to do this when i feel this way but it makes me feel better super quick). Just a little physical activity makes me feel better so its important to keep that in mind. Getting plenty of sleep is helpful too, but not more than you need to. If you can get at least 8 hours of quality sleep every night, it could help to improve your mood. Making an effort to do these little things makes a huge difference and it shows that you want to get out of this rough patch.

If you are experiencing emotional numbness, remember that you are not alone and this is just temporary. Connect and reach out to your loved ones and try speaking to a counsellor/therapist to discover the underlying cause of this problem, create a treatment plan together whether its medicine, talking it out or some sort of therapy you need, to prevent this happening again in the future. I am so passionate about mental health and i try my best to help so if you need someone to talk to/ talk about my experience with my therapist im always available.

See you in my next post and God bless!

Love from Sahibah x

Why I’ve made a blog

Hey my loves,

I wanted my very first post to be about why and how I came about blogging. Now for some, its not a huge deal but for me its been a long decision ( 2 years to be exact). Yes, you heard that right, it took me 2 years to muster up the courage to write what I love and put myself out online. (even though I’m still figuring out how to use this, but I’ll get better I promise)

As a teen, I slowly got into makeup and very quickly fell in love with it. Ive always wanted my own style and loved reading books about beauty, learning about makeup artists of the past and creating my own style. But anyway fast forward to 2015, I wanted to have my own blog. So I drew up some designs, had plans for my Instagram to be more instagrammy and went on make up sprees. Somehow, I started taking it too seriously and I kind of forced myself into it by being all serious about target audience, monetising and only writing about one thing, blah blah. It sucked the fun out if it. Even in makeup I pushed myself to do it better and then that became a chore too and I dropped the whole idea. I always had doubts and this voice in my head that said, my make up isn’t good enough, or I don’t have enough followers and no one will read my posts so i might as well not bother…

Fast forward to 2017 where I left Instagram to take a break from all the pretty girls, the lavishness, the glamour of it all (hope someone can relate!). In this time, I had an epiphany. It took me a while but I became content with who I am and my abilities. Now, ive started to not feel insecure/threatened by other influencers because I actually felt that way and now I post what I like and take risks (AKA, this blog).

This blog is kind of a personal diary that I want to share. I’ll be talking about issues that people have requested and issues im passionate about such as suicide, depression, mental health, and so much more that I really want to share. If anyone wants to reach out to me I’m only a click away and i’ll also be including the relevant helplines.

So to wrap up this insanely long post ( I love you if you’ve made it this far ❤ ) . Take risks. Seriously take the plunge and don’t leave projects halfway. Take risks and you’ll be surprised because it may be the best thing you’ve ever done.

See you in my next post!

Love from Sahibah x