An insight into my hijab journey

Hey my loves! I want to discuss something that people online have been raising questions and issues about my hijab (scarf) and how I portray it on social media. This isn’t a hate post where I’ll complain, but its a chance for those who don’t wear the hijab or don’t understand to see where i’m coming from and as always i’ll be 100% honest. I also want to talk about my journey into wearing it full time out and about and some of the issues I face with modest clothing.

If you follow me on my Instagram you’ll notice that I have my hair out in some of the older posts and people have asked whether I’ve just started wearing it now and some have been really mean calling me all sorts of things from “hypocrite” to “whore” to “part time hijabi”. I’ve heard it all. Im not mad at these comments but I think it comes from frustration or confusion and the mentality that once you choose to wear a hijab that’s it. You cant ever show your hair. Sometimes when I look at someone’s feed and they inconsistently wear a hijab I feel a tiny bit uncomfortable too but never to the extent where I would call them such horrible names. That’s bullying. Therefore, to these comments both the hateful and curious one’s I say that im going to keep these pictures solely because  I think they showcase makeup at a time where i didn’t always wear a hijab and its a look that I just cant recreate, I got lucky, but unfortunately im not wearing a scarf and that’s that.

Looking back to when I was a teenager if I remember correctly I started to wear the hijab in year 7. For the wrong reasons unfortunately and not realising what a massive decision it is and what it means by wearing it. Embarrasingly i’ll admit that I only wore a hijab when I couldn’t figure out how to style my hair. So as soon as I found a new hairstyle I took it off and when I get bored I started to wear it. The cycle continued until year 9 when I was taught what is required of me as a young muslim woman. I also felt stupid and bad when I heard school kids calling me a part time hijabi and i’ll also admit that I wore the hijab again (this time for permanent) so I could feel better and not be made fun of. I wasn’t exactly pressured by my family, I don’t remember my mom telling me you need to wear the hijab. It was my peer pressured, “i need to do this because everyone else is and I want to be a good muslim” 14 year old decision that I thought was great at the time.

Moving onto teenagehood I struggled between wanting to wear loose off the shoulder tops and cute knee high boots and tousled hair and then wanting to wear an abaya and then wanting to wear cute Asian clothes. I was stuck between these different personalities and I didn’t know which one to choose and who I was really. On special occasions I always took my hijab off so it still wasn’t permanent. In a professional environment for example interviews, university presentations or assessment centre’s I feel like I stand out so much. I remember being at an assessment centre in the summer where I was the only hijabi there and I was constantly thinking, “i hope they take me seriously” again and again and again. It was all rubbish and in my head, yet I felt so different and sort of, “not fitting in”.

I realised that if I feel like this then it must mean im struggling and I need to have a reason to wear it and be happy choosing this. Before I started my blog, I made it my mission to be absolutely consistent and always wear a hijab in every selfie so im putting out a consistent image of myself. I also did some further research as to what a hijab would protect me from, why we’ve been asked to do this and imagined who i would be without a hijab. And i came to the conclusion that i would be someone else, i wouldnt be me. My behaviour would change, my dress sense, the way i carry myself, the way i speak even. I absolutely hated the idea of being someone else, my hijab is my identity, my personality and i wouldn’t change it for the world. Eventually I founded the right reason and was happy with it too!

The issues i have with modest clothing

Quite often i find myself struggling to find modest clothing that i love and i feel confident and glamorous in. Wearing a hijab isnt just restricted to covering your hair, its becoming modest in all aspects for example clothing. Sometimes i see a modest clothing brand on Instagram and i get so excited until i see the price and just get taken aback at how utterly ridiculous it is. I dont understand the thought process behind the pricing when modest, stylish clothing should be so easily accessible. So if there are any modest clothing brands out there or are reading this please do keep the customer in mind and make modest clothing just as easy to shop for like regular clothing!

Its still a struggle at times where im tempted to take a selfie with my hair out and I still have a long way to go. Its a learning process that so many hijabi’s can connect and bond over and its beautiful. Let me know if you have any further questions and be sure to follow my blog for instant email notifications whenever I post!

See you in my next post Queens!

Love from Sahibah x

 

 

How to handle your finances!

Its September. In other words, millions of students are anxiously waiting for that student finance text to drop and the wave of ecstasy afterwards seeing  2 digits to a nice old 4. If you struggle with handling your money, wondering where your paycheck flew off to, or a shopaholic student then this post is for you, because if anyone knows the despair of bankruptcy ITS ME!

Now i’ve been trying to figure out how to budget and being aware of where my money is going. I’ve had lectures from parents, ive read countless blogs and youtube videos but through my experience of working full time and now being a student i feel i have a taste of both worlds to figure out what budget plan works for me and to share some of my tips that i hope you find useful.

Working out a budget plan

Over the summer, I’ve had to completely stop my excessive spending and focus on bare necessities, and this meant I had to ignore every sale, every email, every special offer and it made me realise how much promotional material we’re exposed to every day. Its crazy. In one day I must have received about 10 to 20 emails from different beauty/clothing/footwear brands clawing at my purse and we’re exposed to that every single day. Fear not, there’s a solution.

A monthly budget plan is your new bestie from now on. It must sound a little overwhelming and something you would do when you have kids and a mortgage to consider, but a budget plan makes it clear what your spending on and how much you need to save, (which really is going to benefit you in the long run). Its not a long list of decimals and pie charts and diagrams (I’ve left that in school thank you very much). I’m going to tell you guys how I’ve drew up my budget plan, based on my spending habits, my social life (LOL) and my expenses. I can proudly say I don’t own a single designer item and I don’t really see the point of fine dining. Therefore, your budget plan needs to consider YOUR expenses and likes.

I’ve written down my budget plan both in my diary and my phone and I’ve memorised it a million times so I stick to it (if only I sticked to it in first year!). Taking into my loan from student finance into consideration and money from my part time ish job, I’ve set aside £100 for every category to spend on every month. I’ve set aside money for savings and money for expenses I need to cover too. For example, my blogging expenses, the odd food shopping and bill. I’ve also calculated how much I would have left at the end of each month if I were to spend £100 on a category, for example makeup (This is a maximum amount that i probably wont go over but if I were to go over, I would cut back the next month).

You can go down or increase it, but it has to be a set amount so you can control exactly how much you pay for categories like food, clothing, travel etc. Keep a set amount for each category every month. It also helps to plan what you will buy over the next few months so you can keep track. For example I’ve planned out key items I need to get, keeping in with my monthly £100 budget. With a category like food, it really depends how many times you go out to eat and its difficult to keep track of it, so its something you have to consider. Learning how to cook a little, reward cards to save some money by earning points and packed lunches here and there are a great way to cut back on eating out all the time.

Also, another little trick I’ve learnt is to always have cash on you. I feel like whenever I pay for something, using cash and physically handing it over, it registers as more important in my mind than using my card. It might sound crazy but I feel like I’ve actually spent money when I’ve given notes to someone. That’s one of the reasons why I haven’t set up contactless, I would be swiping my account away one Selfridges at a time.

Budgeting may sound impossible especially in a time where breathing is expensive, but it can be done by growing up a bit and recognising your wants and needs. For example, i havent experienced living on my own yet but if you are, then you need to recognise how much money you have coming in, work out exactly what you need to pay for and still have enough for personal use. Its only possible with a clear budget.

 

Financing for makeup artists, beauty bloggers

Knowing how to control your expenses when your a beauty blogger or a makeup artist is so so important. I completely understand the struggle scrolling through a makeup fanatic’s feed seeing highlighters cover their entire floor and thinking I need it all.

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NO YOU DONT!

In fact one of the reasons I was skeptical of blogging was thinking i needed every lipstick, every foundation, every limited edition, every brand and showcase it to the point where i have to live off peanuts. No girl. You don’t know someone’s situation behind your phone screen. They could be the most broke person on the planet, they could be working day and night or they could be quite well off. My point is, if its wanting to make you buy unnecessary things, then take a step back, breathe and think about how it will affect your budget.

The beauty of beauty blogging is that there’s so many of us so we all don’t need to have exactly the same products and tastes, so you don’t have to feel pressured in owning everything. Remember, you have a life and commitments outside of blogging too. For makeup artists and aspiring artists I would give the same advice. Its the quality and skill of your work that determines your demand from clients and not your kit. You could have 15 high end palettes but if you cant blend out eye shadow, I’m not booking you girl. So don’t feel pressured, building a freelance kit takes time. I’ll be posting advice soon for aspiring makeup artists and bloggers so STAY TUNED!

To wrap up this insanely long post, figure out what you spend most on, keep to a set amount, don’t ignore necessary expenses and keep checking your account. Small little shocks along the way is better than one huge depressing blow to the face. And finally dont worry too much, once you’ve worked out your expenses and your keeping in line with a budget then life’s good!

Hope this helped, See you in my next post!

Love from Sahibah x

 

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